To you my Spaceship

"Too many times I've hated you, Too many times I've wanted to change you, Too many times I have forced you to do things against your will, Too many times I've pushed you to exhaust you until you became ill, Too many times I’ve hidden you, Too many times I've judged you, Too many times I've blamed you, Too many times I have denigrated you, Too many times I haven't listened to you, Too many times I haven't accepted you.

Today I wanted to tell you sorry. My monkey mind can sometimes drive me crazy, making my perception of you so blurry. I can definitely see your preciousness, you are so divine and sacred, and you’ve had enough of hatred. You are my spaceship, allowing me to experience this human trip. You’re my my precious gift, my precious body, allowing me to experiment life and to live.

Too many times, I've been ashamed, too many times I've complained about your shape, complained about your figure that I wanted slender, of your texture that I wanted pure and smoother, of your color, your pallor, forcing you to become tanner. Although today I am learning to listen, sometimes I still go back to those old patterns, finding myself not liking what I see, not listening what you are desperately trying to tell me. Why am I so hard on you? Why is it easier to give love and compassion to others than to you? Why do I have so many expectations from you? Why am I tough and not that indulgent with you?

Yes, I am really sorry, my monkey mind can sometimes drive me crazy, making my perception of you so blurry. I can definitely see your preciousness, you are so divine and sacred, and you’ve had enough of hatred. You are my spaceship allowing me to experience this human trip. You’re my my precious gift, my precious body, allowing me to experiment life and to live.

Thanks to you, I can move, walk, dance, run and jump, Thanks to you, I can laugh, cry, scream, hear and speak, Thanks to you, I can touch, push, think, see and feel, Thanks to you I can try, fail, dream, explore and fall, Thanks to you, I can hug, kiss, love, reach out and smile, Thanks to you, I can eat, taste, bite into this juicy life. Thanks to you, I can live and experience, explore a wide range of emotions. Thanks to you I can feel the air on my skin, feel the earth beneath my feet. Thanks to you I can surrender in the water or even feel the warmth of a fire. Thanks to you I can travel around the World, discover landscapes that move my heart. Thanks to you I can dance wherever I want and can decide not to take into account others' judgements.

And YES I want to remember that you are not for granted, that you are such a precious gift. And even though sometimes I still complain, even though sometimes I still wish you different, I want you to remember that it is just my ego playing in his little drama show. But despite those rash moments, I love you, and I thank you for being you, You, my sacred body ! You, my beautiful spaceship ! "